Yesterday we had a small catch up at the school grounds for the prep kids and mums .. It was lovely to meet some fellow "new prep" mums and I can see that some exciting new friendships will develop this year. It was also lovely to see S interact beautifully with the other children and play happily on the grounds that will soon be part of his daily routine. The other good part of the meet was discussing concerns with other mums and seeing that we all (not all, but most) have very similar worries about the start of school for our children....
But alas.. I spent another sleepless night, tossing and turning and fearing for my baby boy ...
I guess alot of what I havnt shared already was my own personal experience with school...
I hated it .. I hated primary and I hated High school.
I did have friends, some great friends and I have some great memories also ...
But for some reason I was a target.. I was bullied alot... and I cant even elaborate on that because my brain/heart has decided to just block out MASSIVE chunks of my school life... no joke, I have HUGE chunks missing.. when I meet up with old school friends I have no idea what / who they are talking about half of the time when they reminisce...
Now I know that what happened to me will not necessarily happen to my boy but thats the thing with fears, they are irrational ...
I wish I knew how to disconnect my own school story from my boys and feel excited for what good things will happen for him ..
I just dont know how.....
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ReplyDeleteYou know what, S is so confident! And SOOO good at sport etc, I think he will be one of the 'popular' kids. Plus he is a lot older than the others so I think that would stop him from being a target. It's hard, but we'll be praying for a positive school experience for all your boys xoxo
You may never disconnect from your own memories. I cant and havnt...... but this will be their experience and all we can do is give them the tools to tackle what is ahaed and try to not get too involved or opinionated (which is really hard!!!!!!) Listen often, praise alot and cuddle all the time. He will feel secure and thats a huge bonus!
ReplyDeleteThe fact that you had a bad time will probably make you more attuned if your son is having a bad time... and therefore enable you to flag it and do something about it. Consider this an opportunity to BREAK the cycle.
ReplyDeleteLOL Becky I thought he would be alot older but so far it seems he is around the middle age wise... insane hey! Thanks x
ReplyDeleteIts true Leigh, I dont think I will ever disconnect, tools is my thinking at the moment too, arming him ! Thanks x
Emily Sue, you make a really valid point and I appreciate that, I do believe I will be very attuned to my son and how he is going.. I hope I can break the cycle ! Thank you ! x