Today my husband is due home after working away for a few days.. Its so hard when he is away with work, its hard with the kids, I dont sleep much and well, I just plain out miss him !
I tend to whinge and whine when work calls him away from us but the reality is that we are very fortunate that he has a good job, regular income and everything we could ever need at home, plus thanks to his job I DONT have to work !! ...
So today I am thankful for my Husband and how hard he works to provide for our family and I will endeavour to not make him feel so guilty everytime work calls him away.
I am thankful for his job even though he often has to work night shift or away... We ARE blessed that he has this job at all !
(and Yay that he is coming home today !!)
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
School stress again ...
Yesterday we had a small catch up at the school grounds for the prep kids and mums .. It was lovely to meet some fellow "new prep" mums and I can see that some exciting new friendships will develop this year. It was also lovely to see S interact beautifully with the other children and play happily on the grounds that will soon be part of his daily routine. The other good part of the meet was discussing concerns with other mums and seeing that we all (not all, but most) have very similar worries about the start of school for our children....
But alas.. I spent another sleepless night, tossing and turning and fearing for my baby boy ...
I guess alot of what I havnt shared already was my own personal experience with school...
I hated it .. I hated primary and I hated High school.
I did have friends, some great friends and I have some great memories also ...
But for some reason I was a target.. I was bullied alot... and I cant even elaborate on that because my brain/heart has decided to just block out MASSIVE chunks of my school life... no joke, I have HUGE chunks missing.. when I meet up with old school friends I have no idea what / who they are talking about half of the time when they reminisce...
Now I know that what happened to me will not necessarily happen to my boy but thats the thing with fears, they are irrational ...
I wish I knew how to disconnect my own school story from my boys and feel excited for what good things will happen for him ..
I just dont know how.....
But alas.. I spent another sleepless night, tossing and turning and fearing for my baby boy ...
I guess alot of what I havnt shared already was my own personal experience with school...
I hated it .. I hated primary and I hated High school.
I did have friends, some great friends and I have some great memories also ...
But for some reason I was a target.. I was bullied alot... and I cant even elaborate on that because my brain/heart has decided to just block out MASSIVE chunks of my school life... no joke, I have HUGE chunks missing.. when I meet up with old school friends I have no idea what / who they are talking about half of the time when they reminisce...
Now I know that what happened to me will not necessarily happen to my boy but thats the thing with fears, they are irrational ...
I wish I knew how to disconnect my own school story from my boys and feel excited for what good things will happen for him ..
I just dont know how.....
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Thankful Thursday
So my plan is for every Thursday to do a "thankful" post.. The idea is to show others what I am thankful for but mostly to remind myself what I am or should be thankful for !!
So technically it should be deep and meaningful right...??
Well for the past week Mr C has been waking all through the night... and its holidays so I have all three at home... my home is messy, my body is tired and my brain is mushy ....
So today I am thankful for ...
COFFEE
So technically it should be deep and meaningful right...??
Well for the past week Mr C has been waking all through the night... and its holidays so I have all three at home... my home is messy, my body is tired and my brain is mushy ....
So today I am thankful for ...
COFFEE
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Photography
Photography is a hobby of mine... I go through stages where I really get into it, then I get let down, dissapointed .. shattered even sometimes (when doing shoots for someone else) and I give up.. put the (good) camera away and revert to snaps... well.. I always take snaps regardless.. thats an addiction ..
Hmm anyway lately I have been trying again.. and I took some sweet shots of my boys today... it was fun and I like them but they are NEVER even close to what I want or expect .. I'll never be a "photographer" I need to get over it and just try to enjoy it like I used to ... Because as soon as I put pressure on myself I fail .. *sigh* What a whinge :p
Here are a few I took today
They are lovely.. I love them anyway (because they are my gorgeous boys more than anything) but they just arent quite up to scratch..
I am my own worse critic...
For interest sake you can view some of my other photos at RedBubble (http://www.redbubble.com/people/snapintoit) Cant seem to get a link to work ??
Hmm anyway lately I have been trying again.. and I took some sweet shots of my boys today... it was fun and I like them but they are NEVER even close to what I want or expect .. I'll never be a "photographer" I need to get over it and just try to enjoy it like I used to ... Because as soon as I put pressure on myself I fail .. *sigh* What a whinge :p
Here are a few I took today
They are lovely.. I love them anyway (because they are my gorgeous boys more than anything) but they just arent quite up to scratch..
I am my own worse critic...
For interest sake you can view some of my other photos at RedBubble (http://www.redbubble.com/people/snapintoit) Cant seem to get a link to work ??
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Holidays
We just arrived home from a lovely family break at Phillip Island. A few days with just me and my boys, a visit from the pastor and his wife (great friends) for dinner one evening and a two night visit from our dear friends and their children (which meant 6 boys all up.. Crazy fun !)
It was great talking to all these people who are in similar life stages to me and hearing their take on school, children growing up etc and how they have dealt with certain situations as they arose. I know we are all different and how we choose to handle situations varys but its great to get POV's from people I admire, respect and trust.
Anyway back to our holiday... It was a delightful time with my precious boys. They are always so good really (give or take a few "moments") and on this break inparticular I thought they were just lovely, delightful and fun. We really did have a great time....
Oh, but there was this one night.. it was the night our lovely pastor and his gorgeous wife came to visit, we went out for dinner and that was great, went well... boys behaved, food was nice and conversation even better.. when it was time to leave there is a small play area outside the restaurant and the boys played there while we said our farewells...
then we hear that cry.. you know the one... its the "I have really hurt myself this time" cry and its coming from our 4 year old.
Hubby runs to get him and when he gets back to the car (so a space of about 1 minute) E's cheek is the size of an apple !! He has fallen off a stepping log and landed, cheek first, on another stepping log .. ouch !
So now what...? We are on holidays, outside a restaurant ... ARGH !
After racing back inside the restaurant and getting some ice and some local advice we headed down to a GP's who open until late, thankfully still open.. quick check up and back in the morning for a CT scan to check for breaks to the facial bones... Thank the Lord there are no broken bones and its just then a slow road to recovery.. at this stage (5 days on) he is still slightly swollen and has a cheek that is black and blue ! but at least he can smile again :p
This was about 30 hours after the accident...
and this is today ...
The best day of our holiday was the day when it was 40 plus degrees here in VIC. Not nice for the bulk of the day but when it hit about 7pm we all headed down to the surf beach at the end of the street and enjoyed the ocean and the cool breeze that came off it.. pure bliss and so much fun ...
The boys digging at the waters edge...
Mr C is fascinated by the sand (his 3rd time ever on the beach)
Beach play as the sun goes down.. How can you not love this !!?? ...
Mr C enjoys the sand and his brothers play at the waters edge..
Its memories like this that I have to hold onto, grasp onto and hold close... Forever in my heart
(lets not discuss that very night and trying to sleep with a low of 30 degrees !!!... you'll ruin my happy memories!! ;p)
It was great talking to all these people who are in similar life stages to me and hearing their take on school, children growing up etc and how they have dealt with certain situations as they arose. I know we are all different and how we choose to handle situations varys but its great to get POV's from people I admire, respect and trust.
Anyway back to our holiday... It was a delightful time with my precious boys. They are always so good really (give or take a few "moments") and on this break inparticular I thought they were just lovely, delightful and fun. We really did have a great time....
Oh, but there was this one night.. it was the night our lovely pastor and his gorgeous wife came to visit, we went out for dinner and that was great, went well... boys behaved, food was nice and conversation even better.. when it was time to leave there is a small play area outside the restaurant and the boys played there while we said our farewells...
then we hear that cry.. you know the one... its the "I have really hurt myself this time" cry and its coming from our 4 year old.
Hubby runs to get him and when he gets back to the car (so a space of about 1 minute) E's cheek is the size of an apple !! He has fallen off a stepping log and landed, cheek first, on another stepping log .. ouch !
So now what...? We are on holidays, outside a restaurant ... ARGH !
After racing back inside the restaurant and getting some ice and some local advice we headed down to a GP's who open until late, thankfully still open.. quick check up and back in the morning for a CT scan to check for breaks to the facial bones... Thank the Lord there are no broken bones and its just then a slow road to recovery.. at this stage (5 days on) he is still slightly swollen and has a cheek that is black and blue ! but at least he can smile again :p
This was about 30 hours after the accident...
and this is today ...
The best day of our holiday was the day when it was 40 plus degrees here in VIC. Not nice for the bulk of the day but when it hit about 7pm we all headed down to the surf beach at the end of the street and enjoyed the ocean and the cool breeze that came off it.. pure bliss and so much fun ...
The boys digging at the waters edge...
Mr C is fascinated by the sand (his 3rd time ever on the beach)
Beach play as the sun goes down.. How can you not love this !!?? ...
Mr C enjoys the sand and his brothers play at the waters edge..
Its memories like this that I have to hold onto, grasp onto and hold close... Forever in my heart
(lets not discuss that very night and trying to sleep with a low of 30 degrees !!!... you'll ruin my happy memories!! ;p)
Sunday, January 10, 2010
Welcome to my Blog
This is my very first entry in my lovely new Blog... I decided to do a Blog simply because I am not coping well with the stage of life that I am in and felt the need to journal the journey...
Why arent I coping with my current stage of life??
well, that is the million dollar question ...
So who am I?, what am I?, What do I do? and what am I not coping with?...
I am a 35 year old mother of 3 adorable boys. I have been at home with my boys since my eldest was born, almost 6 years ago... I enjoy being a full time mum thoroughly.
I am also a wife, to my darling husband, a sister to two younger brothers and sister in law to three amazing and different women, a daughter to my fantastic parents, an aunty to three wonderful little men and a friend of many.. infact I am blessed with many precious friends. I have a lovely home in an area that I love and many fantastic hobbies ...
So im a nutshell I am just like any average woman, I am no one special and I kinda like it that way !
I am a christian and feel beyond blessed to pesonally know the man who saved me, ME !
What could I possibly be concerned with right???
Well I guess the problem is that all of my life i have set myself up for what I have right now... house, husband, children ... etc etc.. great, achieved *tick, tick, tick*
But now as my baby boy is here and no more babies are on the cards for us (and thats a definate !) and my eldest baby is about to head off to school (in less than a month away *gulp*) I see myself with a problem ...
Who am I if I am not a mother... ??
So why I know you are all saying "Oh my, you have so much more mothering to do.." and yes, obviously I am aware that there is more to mothering than the pre school years, but lets be honest with ourselves... it changes...
Soon it will be pointless for me to stay home and I'll need to search for work ...
My babies will go from cuddley toddlers, to chatty school kids, to grunting and eating teens, then leave, cleave and become parents themselves (God willing)
So what do I want to do?... honestly?... I know life is for living but I just want to wrap them up in time stopping blankies and keep my babies with me forever, getting sloppy kisses, messy cuddles and that undescribable joy and fun that small children bring to your days ....
So as irrational as it sounds (and I know it does) this blog will be my journey as I process me and my family and learn to grow up with them as they grow up ...
Why arent I coping with my current stage of life??
well, that is the million dollar question ...
So who am I?, what am I?, What do I do? and what am I not coping with?...
I am a 35 year old mother of 3 adorable boys. I have been at home with my boys since my eldest was born, almost 6 years ago... I enjoy being a full time mum thoroughly.
I am also a wife, to my darling husband, a sister to two younger brothers and sister in law to three amazing and different women, a daughter to my fantastic parents, an aunty to three wonderful little men and a friend of many.. infact I am blessed with many precious friends. I have a lovely home in an area that I love and many fantastic hobbies ...
So im a nutshell I am just like any average woman, I am no one special and I kinda like it that way !
I am a christian and feel beyond blessed to pesonally know the man who saved me, ME !
What could I possibly be concerned with right???
Well I guess the problem is that all of my life i have set myself up for what I have right now... house, husband, children ... etc etc.. great, achieved *tick, tick, tick*
But now as my baby boy is here and no more babies are on the cards for us (and thats a definate !) and my eldest baby is about to head off to school (in less than a month away *gulp*) I see myself with a problem ...
Who am I if I am not a mother... ??
So why I know you are all saying "Oh my, you have so much more mothering to do.." and yes, obviously I am aware that there is more to mothering than the pre school years, but lets be honest with ourselves... it changes...
Soon it will be pointless for me to stay home and I'll need to search for work ...
My babies will go from cuddley toddlers, to chatty school kids, to grunting and eating teens, then leave, cleave and become parents themselves (God willing)
So what do I want to do?... honestly?... I know life is for living but I just want to wrap them up in time stopping blankies and keep my babies with me forever, getting sloppy kisses, messy cuddles and that undescribable joy and fun that small children bring to your days ....
So as irrational as it sounds (and I know it does) this blog will be my journey as I process me and my family and learn to grow up with them as they grow up ...
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